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i have plenty of regrets which cannot be erased, but i will not ever regret reminding you how much you mean to me... i don't regret saying things like...

life without you is an exercise in existence
a day without you is a 24 hour window of emptiness
a moment without you, is a crime never worth repeating...

i know deep down you had to shut off your feelings because you were hurt. i do understand iren. i had so many things wrong that I cannot begin to explain them even to myself... hence my regrets... but, i do not stop trying, believing, or holding on because i know deep down if you will unlock your soul and open up... there will be no regret for either of us, ever again... 

i could say things like, you're all i have, but that isn't true. or, i do need you to exist, but that isn't true either. when i say though, i am dying without you, its not even possible for me to hide the idea that my heart and soul deteriorate a little bit every day we are apart.

ill tell you this Iri... every day i honestly miss you more than the previous.. but i won't ever quit, you are worth it.. and i wish i could tell you these things while seeing you instead of an email

i hope you have a lovely sunday and please kiss sashi and chu for me.. and the next time you hug them, please hold them a little tighter and tell them daddy misses them.... as much as he misses you.
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