For Irena

Not long after we moved to Basel and at our temporary housing, we came up with the idea of making postcards and sending them out to everyone... I don't remember exactly what happened or why we never actually finished that idea, but.. here is one of the pictures we took... I love this family so much and they really are everything in the world to me... imuvmI

i started a routine of lifting weights at home.. It is nothing special, but I like the idea of exercising like this a little bit. i think it helps me keep strong in my mind... i am hoping that by taking on many little things, like this, I find a way to keep my mind busy. I have noticed that the more idle time I have, the more I think about Iren. For instance, I am also studying classical spanish guitar. This has been taking a lot of my time along with planning a visit coming up with Miles. I have also been continuing my hikes of all the cantons. Each one is a full day affair and I am trying to bring someone with me to keep my mind from being idle. short note today.. but.. Iren is on my mind and I need to try and focus on something else right now.. imuvmi

Missing Irena has caused me many emotions... I try so hard to make my feelings different, hard, cold, whatever, to turn off the love I have for her, but nothing seems to work. When we email about logistical stuff I get very hurt because I miss her so much, but I also get confused. She is dating a man and seems to really like him. I do not need to say how sad this makes me from one perspective because it really is the last thing I ever wanted to hear. So, I know she is not reading these, but I am so very sorry for not always being nice in my emails Iren. I am just hurt because I love you so much. I ask you to please forgive me and try to understand that if I am defensive, it is not because of anything except I love you... I know that sounds and is crazy.. but.. my hurt is cloudy at times and that blocks my better judgement. imuvmi

I came here to shoot it elapse of the balloon festival and wished so very much you were here with me. Chateax D'Oex Balloon Festival - brief introduction test from Sashimiso on Vimeo . Is there any chance whatsoever I'll be able to bring you the next time I go? imuvmi

I was looking for an old picture of something and in the process, I ran into a few photos which all have memories for me.. As always, they make me think of Iren and the times we have shared together... The first two pictures are from the last time that Iren and I went hiking together... they are our kids, Sashimi Miso Kobayashi, and on the right is Chu Chu..  I miss them so much .. When I would come home from work, they would be waiting for me, so I would quickly take off my shoes, and run to the bed.  Then they would come running in and jump up on the bed. Chu Chu would always sit at my feet and wait while Sashi got his loving and kisses.. he would go crazy.. then, Chu would come and take his turn for the same.. and in an instant.. when it was over, they would run back to Iren... We would do this every single day One day not too long into us living here, it started to hail outside during the day. Our apartment is on the top floor with a large balcony and the ha...