For Irena

Miles will be here any day now.. I wish Iren could see how big he has gotten, how smart and good looking he is. She would be so proud... He loves her very much and cares about her. And, while he doesn't say much, I know it hurts him that Iri and I are going through this terrible time... I wish she were here and I miss her so very, very, much.. she completes me unlike any expression explains... imuvmi to the most amazingly beautiful woman in the world.. and in the words of one of iren's favorite singers.. "nothing compares.... to you"

Dear Iren I was having a hard time sleeping, it's a little after 4:00 am. I was just remembering the day you left with chu and sashi. I think if I held them any tighter I would have squeezed them to death. Little did I know that was the last time we would be a family until this point.  I am sad as the dogs are getting older and I'm missing this time with them. And you, I wish to have a family with you so very much ....  imuvmi

When Iren first moved in with me, she did not have a solid way to get into the city. So, we used to leave around 5:40 every morning and drive for about 2 hours to get her into the city on time to start work. I would then drive back to my office... In the evenings I would either pick her up in the city or she would take a train to the first stop out and I would get her there... Those days were very long, sometimes stressful.. but I never regretted them for a moment and I wish I could do it all over again... I loved being with her. We used to listen to Howard together and laugh so much. I miss you Iri.. you really mean everything in the world to me... I love you with all of my heart imuvmi

I think back on all the good times we had together.. and the memories we built.. yes, there were tough times too, but, that doesn't mean there were not plenty of great ones.. which, always meant more and outweighed the other... Sashi and Chu are such amazing dogs.. I cannot begin to describe how good it feels to hold them, kiss them, play with them, watch them run, go hiking and more.. really, they are everything in the world, along with Iren.. to me... I miss all of you so much... really, so very, very much!! please come home!!! imuvmi

Iren always kept close by a picture of her grandmother. She has it in a tiny frame and you can see where Iren gets her beauty from... imuvmi

I can make a list that I swear would fill a football stadium of all the things about Iren that I love.. I mean really.. that list would put anyone else to sleep, but the little things always added up to the stuff that filled my heart... anyway.. one of those things she would do all the time which was so amazingly cute, sexy, and funny is a cat walk and pose. So, maybe she was trying something new on, or just having fun, but she would do it all the time and nothing, NOTHING was more fun to watch... this one.. she just got this blue shirt and was trying it on.. tell me she isn't the most attractive model on the planet.. !!! Btw, this picture was taken before we redid the kitchen. In fact, it was even before we moved the refrigerator.. I think we were only there a little over a year. Also, just over her left shoulder is a tiny picture on the wall. That photo was taken by her on a visit to Novy Jicin and a hike she did with her mom. I loved the picture and had to hang it up. imu...