HI

Dear Iren

I hope you are having a nice day.... really, I do...

This week, it has been a whirlwind of emotions for me. When you told me last sunday that you got married, I felt like someone took the feet out from under me, and then stepped on top of me. I couldn't breathe, I couldn't think straight, and I just couldn't imagine how this could even be real.

But... it is...

When we wrote back and forth those many emails, it felt amazing because we were communicating, and at the same time, it hurt more than ever. The way we talked, were open, honest, and genuine, it really meant the world to me. Really!!

The sad part was, I kept checking my phone, looking at my messages to see if I would hear from you again. And when they didn't come I was sad and when they did, I was worried that you were going to just tell me to get lost.   I am very proud of my being a lot stronger now though. I know that all of the changes I have made in my life are what have led me to this place, this point, and this moment.

I am a good man.
I am an honest man.
I am a very loving and giving man.

I miss you.. very much.. and nothing ever changes this.. and yes, I would give just about anything to have you back in my life as I really believe, we are meant to be as one. I think though, this isn't the same feeling for you, sadly.

Here is last nights sunset from the balcony, in case you miss seeing them.

Warmly
Dave