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1467 days

Dear Irena

Its been 1467 days since we were divorced (February 13, 2013) and today, we shared some emails, and it made me cry. You told me you are married again, and we can never try to fix things again. If words could express how this makes me feel, I would express them, but its too deep for me...

I want to be happy for you, and wish you all the happiness ever, because you do deserve nothing less. And I know, its the gentlemanly thing to do, and what I should do.

I am very happy for you Irena, you deserve nothing less than complete happiness, forever.

I am in a state of shock... I am not mad, nor blame you, nor feel you did anything wrong.. I guess, this day had to come.. but it hurts.. because after all the time, I learned two things: one, that i needed to change myself so I could say I love me, and two, that you will always be in the center of my heart.

I miss you all the time, and I never ever stop thinking about you. These words, are very true and always sincere.

With any luck, we will come back in another life and meet again, and be in love forever.. In the meantime, I will continue to write you here, and love you for the rest of my days (which, if my calculations serve me correctly, is going to be along way away as I plan on living another 58 years 7 months 1 days or 703 months 1 days or 3056 weeks 5 days or 21397 days or 513,528 hours or 30,811,680 minutes or 1,848,700,800 seconds give or take a few hours here or there...

so please wait for me

i miss you
me


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