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Dear Iren

It has been 1,116 days since our divorce...............

Of course, like most of the reasons I write to you, its because I miss you. Tonight, I just finished watching a movie and it reminded me of so many things, which only followed me finding an old video clip of you and I arguing.

So... tonight you get the I am sorry list
  • I am sorry I failed to give you what you deserved. My love was endless, but my actions were selfish.
  • I am sorry for not being able to understand you, and understand what it is that you meant when you said some of the things you said. 
  • I am sorry that when we fought, I didn't listen to you, instead I spent all the time trying to prove just how right I was and wrong you were
  • I am sorry I never worked at taking care of myself. Not for you, but for me. The result would have been my understanding more about myself. This, would have benefited you.
  • and tonight Iren, I am endlessly sorry I cannot stop loving you, and forgetting you. I look at the old photos and my heart breaks.
I know you met a man and you really like him (maybe love him, maybe even more). It's certainly my fault that we are not together so I cannot blame anyone but myself.  Lao Tzu said that its unhealthy to live in the past, and while I completely agree, and understand, it is that past which is the only thing I have left of you.

Warmly
Dave

Here is that argument... I wish I knew half of what I know now back then

and here are some memories








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