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feeling sick

some days I feel so sick inside because of this terrible tragedy. I do not know what I can or will do, but in time I pray this gets better.. and at the same time, I pray it opens Irena's mind to seeing possibility in me again.

i do not know what she is thinking or how she feels outside of knowing she doesn't want me in her life...

this just makes me so sick and sad inside.. for me, it was, is, and always will be just the opposite... she really means everything in the world to me...

as each day passes I feel sicker and sicker... when someone asks me to go on a date, i tell them always the same thing... "I miss my wife" .. and... "all i want is for her to come back"

ugh!!

imuvmi

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